The list that we have, every woman has that list, on that list we already told God what Kind of husband we want. I had my list and I found out in prayer, that my list did not match God’s List. Prophetess, if I had gone with my list, not only would I have fortified the husband that God had for my life, I would have forfeited my entire ministry. God had to take Vanessa on a journey, because pride set in. I found myself praying for my husband. I was going to pray for his deliverance because, I wanted him to look like all those other prophets.
I wanted him to pray like the other prophets, have a deep theological understanding, like the other prophets. I remember one day, in prayer the Lord rebuked me deeply. He said, your pride is going to cause you to lose the best thing, I every gave you. Instead of praying for your husband, I want you to start praying for you. At the end of the day, he said Vanessa, you are the problem. You are going to let the church cause you to lose the gift I prepared for your life before the foundation of the earth.